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"You can't fix it. You can't make it go away.
I don't know what you're going to do about it,
But I know what I'm going to do about it. I'm just
going to walk away from it. Maybe
A small part of it will die if I'm not around
feeding it anymore."
--Lew Welch
How to tell a story
Saturday, February 28, 2015
5000M
Sports overload
Life force
Friday, February 27, 2015
Senior moment
What a world
Homer lecture, Brahms lecture, to listen to.
Coming to one's senses
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NCAAW: Visiting Stanford upsets OSU
I saw this one coming. Alas.
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Thursday, February 26, 2015
Warrior culture
Q & A in a dream
# I wrote 24/7 obsessively for almost half a century. This work is in two large archives at two universities. I've written enough.
Aren't you disappointing your readers?
# What readers? At this point in time, I have few readers.
Then write for yourself. Writers always have to write.
# I am. In Zen, poetry is not the words on paper but the mode of thought in the mind of the poet. My mind is as active as ever.
Do you wish you had more readers?
# Well, of course - that is, if they left me alone. Not if I'm expected to become a salesman and a "literary figure." I'd like more readers to be blown away by something I've written, privately and permanently. I'm sure more have than I know about.
# How can you be sure?
Now and again I hear from one or one reveals this to me - like Sirc expanding my 1967 essay into a book almost 40 years later. 40 years later! This is the writer-reader relationship at its best.
So you are happy about the direction of your career?
# Let's put it this way. In this culture, my career has little to do with me. What you surely refer to, better called what it is, fame and fortune, is a crapshoot. My most visible decade, as a playwright in Portland in the 1980s, had more to do with three directors and one drama critic than with me, because they vigorously supported my work. They made me visible. When they disappear, I disappear.
You must have hated that.
# For a while, yes, because it's flattering to think all this attention actually has something to do with you. But I began to understand how the arts really work in this culture when I started judging plays myself. In a classic example, I was one of 3 judges asked to select ten scripts from 70 for the Illinois Arts Commission. We began by making our own top ten lists. Then we compared them. There was not one duplication! Think about that. We did not agree on a single top ten playwright. So you tell me: what does this have to do with the playwrights?
Are you depressed?
# Ha ha! I find reality liberating. Look at Frankl in a concentration camp. How can bullshit like this be depressing? I know I live in a culture that has made the arts commodities in the marketplace and--
Surely the arts matter more than this?
# If the arts mattered to the culture, reading Graham Greene's The Quiet American in the 1950s would have made the Vietnam War impossible. If American writers worry about performing in the culture, they get swallowed up. You best do your work and hope for the accident of individual readers finding and being moved by it. In this regard, I consider myself blessed. I've gathered some true fans along the way.
What are you up to today if you're not writing?
# Life is good. I love retirement. I am revisiting classical Greek lit, taking an online course. I discovered Shastakovich! A major connection, and I don't have enough years left to explore all his music. I dabble on my ukulele. I'm helping my wife recover from a heart attack. I'm getting ready to sell our house and move. I hang with Sketch, our rat terrier. There aren't enough hours in the day.
Thank you for taking the time here.
# Can I wake up now?
Hear, hear!
New report from Berkeley scientists tracks, confirms, human factor.
Watch list
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Observation
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Student athletes
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Bug fixed
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Cheap labor
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Spring training
Play ball!
East coast bias
But I have one complaint: seldom is a game west of the Rockies picked up. This app needs a west coast version.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Classical Greek
And here I am half a century later, studying the classics again.
NCAAW: Canisius 65. Niagara 59
Monday, February 23, 2015
Waiting room
A universal condition
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Hedges on ...
Q.E.D.
Busy week ...
Sunday, February 22, 2015
1:52, 7 pt Cal over Stanford ... NCAAW
1:20, 11 pts
1:02, 10
44.0, 11
34.8, 9
34.3, 10
Cal wins after 11 straight losses to Nerd Nation.
3 games, 3 big upsets! More fun than March Madness.
NCAAW another upset
Manual labor
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NCAAW: 8PT lead, 3 mins
2:46...10 lead
2:33...8
2:17 ... 10
1:39 ...8
1:28 ... 7
1:25 ... 9
1:01 ... 8
58.9 : 10
50.1 : 12
37.1 : 12
26.3 : 9
20.9 : 11
09.2: 13
72-59, NC State wins! GREAT GAME!
Sling TV has led me to a greater appreciation of college sports ... women's games, small college games, once you leave the big time college as farm team for pros environment, a lot of old school values return, true student jocks return. No corporate bullshit, less hype, smaller egos, more team play. I love it.
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A bit of heaven
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Lectures
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Bread
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Friday, February 20, 2015
Yep
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Dinosaur confession
Not enough?
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Stress city
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Wonders of technology
Thursday, February 19, 2015
Old age
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Bread
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Terrific
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And no wonder ... sainthood for genocide?
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Old dog, forgotten tricks
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Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Weather
ESPN3
Also got to watch Miami marathon this afternoon. This is sports junky heaven for the small obscure stuff I love, too ignored for corporate interest.
Our ex gov blew it
His fiancee was incredibly ambitious. Staff couldn't dissuade her. Looks like both in for a heap of hurt. Dumb "guy." Maybe it is a Greek tragedy after all. Another power male thinking with his dick.
Kiss of Doom |
Tuesday, February 17, 2015
SW rules!
Snow
Man, thank the gods I'm not in Boston now!
Rio waiting room
Sketch rules
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American politics
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Speaking of which ...
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Ah, me
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Bread
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Monday, February 16, 2015
Cutting the cord
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Yep
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Yep
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Sunday, February 15, 2015
Rewards one doesn't apply for
# 3x Roll of Honor, Best Amer Short Stories, akin to 2nd string
All Amer in sports. Came early in career, important validation, though I soon abandoned fiction for decades.
# Commission to write first hyperdrama. Began a very long obsession, essentially ended traditional theater career.
# Play commission, Actors Theatre of Louisville, most imp in country at time. Agent set it up. I blew it, into early hyperdrama obsession. But getting it mattered. So in both short fiction and traditional theater, I followed a major reward by changjng focus.
# Oregon Theatre Foundation Award. Fat check out of the blue. Essentially a patron, it turns out.
# Distinguished Writer in Residence, Catlin Gable School. Offer out of the blue, full school year. So successful it was renewed as Distinguished Scholar (couldn't be repeated, so they used different funds). Two great years in 1980s!
# Digital archive at Univ of North Carolina in new Ibiblio Library. Head librarian impressed with my hypertext essay, wooed me. Been a security blanket for all my work.
# Eng Comp As A Happenjng, book length homage to, expansion of, 1967 essay I wrote as grad student. Issues still argued in academia.
I would welcome one more surprise before I pass ... but don't expect one.
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One month ...
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"Fashion is the first refuge of a scoundrel"
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/13/living/feat-body-image-kids-younger-ages/index.html
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More power to her
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/12/us/california-right-to-die-lawsuit/index.html
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The future
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/14/us/nasa-study-western-megadrought/index.html
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Sanity
Nice late valentine lunch yesterday. Talked about selling the house, moving. Start checking out neighborhoods next month, getting serious about downsizing.
H looking into getting her license back.
A pretty good day yesterday!
Lots of women's bball today.
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Saturday, February 14, 2015
No no no
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/13/politics/oregon-governor-resigns/index.html
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Friday, February 13, 2015
A little pick me up ...
Hello Mr. Deemer,
I did it, I got into grad school. I wanted to thank you for your help and support!!! Woo Hoo
I truly was inspired in your class, and will always appreciate what I learned and the inspiration I gained through you!!
#
She was a type of student I was particularly good for, creative and edgy, risk taking, non conformist ... I gave her lots of freedom.
Love conquers all? (bad joke)
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/12/politics/john-kitzhaber-resignation/index.html
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Hear, hear!
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Thursday, February 12, 2015
Writers have been saying this for years
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Cartoon
Last words
The grin! All used up! I sensed both relief, satisfaction, celebration. He had used all the Life Force in his tank. Now it was empty. Time to go. The grin: but what a ride!
Something even more remarkable happened. It was time for me to go back to Portland. Again he appeared to be asleep. I kissed him on the forehead - and he said, "Lovely."
He died a week later. I returned and with his mother and two sons, we scattered his ashes off White Bird Hill above the Salmon River. He has a military plaque in White Bird cemetery.
Ah, me ...
How long does this go on?
Of course, to friends on the phone, everything is great. Never realized how much social appearances matter to her.
Tomorrow we do get out ... take paintings to McMinnville for exhibit. If I can get her out if bed ...
The rhythm of the day sucks.
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Once so good ...
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Ha, ha!
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Hear, hear!
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Wednesday, February 11, 2015
Quotation of the day
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Spike Lee's Document
"This was America, this was today, and this was a Third World scene." Sean Penn
We are so far from our mythology about ourselves ... the small good news is that more and more people realize this, and eventually, if it's not too late, a critical mass might be reached ... and then ... same o same o, endless repetition going nowhere (Brown).
Return of James Baldwin
Lots of recent interest in his work. Glad to see it. I wrote a long piece on him for The Progressive in the 1970s. One of my literary heroes. (ref)
Hear, hear!
Monday, February 9, 2015
Let it snow!
Watched with SlingTV, which is great. On free trial but will subscribe. Great game!
I'm On the Downhill Side
my best years far behind
and yet I don't complain
but celebrate my past
I'm on the downhill side
and celebrate alone
it's either this or not
celebrate at all
maybe down the road
long after dust to dust
a stranger will respond
to something that I wrote
which really is the point
more than here and now
to write something so true
it transcends space and time
this is what I grasped
is this what I reached?
I'll be the last to know
I'm on the downhill side
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Teaching writing
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Sniper mentality
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/05/us/sniper-view-on-killing/index.html
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What's new?
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What's new?
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Greed rules
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Sunday, February 8, 2015
Monday, 5pm
ESPN2 and I can watch with my trial Sling TV ... really looking forward to it. No crisis, please!
Saturday, February 7, 2015
Second time
How easily we buy into our national myths. Getting nowhere, as Brown would say.
Bubble burst
Friday, February 6, 2015
Thursday, February 5, 2015
Why just this category?
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Rio nailed it
Two books
The Years is certain, and given the infrequency of recent posts, it may be time to assemble it. So doing, I may get inspired to add.
Isolation
But the land got developed and now we have neighbors. With our large lot, I suspect the cottage will be torn down and condos go up when we move, hopefully in Aug or Sept.
The isolation worked well for two working artists. But now, in old age, we both are ready for more company. We want quiet neighbors and a walking neigjborhood. We'll start looking next month maybe.
H's six months recovery period ends. Rio post-rehab ends. Spring begins our lives anew.
50th anniversary of Lunch Poems
Frank O'Hara's Lunch Poems are being called the first tweets, which is a bit much, but they were colloquial and informal, against the academic fashion of the day.
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Mailer's masterpiece?
So I am revisiting THE EXECUTIONER'S SONG, all thousand pages of it. And early on, I'm mightily impressed once again.
Balance
http://www.cnn.com//2015/02/03/living/cnnphotos-red-road-native-americans/index.html
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Cartoon
Wishful thinking?
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Ha ha!
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Barbarism
those guys are barbaric
they behead hostages
they burn them alive
we are civilized
we bomb the enemy
from unmanned drones
no blood on our hands
in the control room
sipping coffee
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A question
Conspiracy theories
I think he did it because the end of first half gamble - TD over FG - worked and he thought he was invincible. "What a gutsy call! What a genius!" and all that. Couldn't have happened to a larger ego ha ha.
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Wow
Monday, February 2, 2015
Oregon image and reality
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Hey, but we don't behead anyone!
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New?
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Almost 50 years later!
From today: "Radical expressivists Charles Deemer and William Lutz also suggest that English position should be taught as and considered a sort of Happening."
Here is the original essay, published in 1967. My, my.
(Note I close with Norman Brown.)
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Q.E.D.
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Over-coaching
Sometimes you should do what has been done many times before and not get cute. Super Coach blew it.
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More on Generation War
...very high production values, which means very high budget. Just enough action for "war movie" realism and horror without making action the focus.
...none of friends is nazis. One is Jewish. Makes for a story about moral decline and/or growth.
...much more to learn from stories of war "losers" than "winners" ... none of the saving the world for democracy stuff American audiences usually get.
...great script and acting, filled with delicious one-liners ... "we start out heroes and end up assholes."
...no cheap shots or sentimentality. Makes it hard to watch at times. H couldn't watch at all.
...Amer network shd pick this up. Americans need to see it. Our war movies are spoiled by patriotic mythology.
...I think this almost matches Homer and Shakespeare for a war epic!
Generation War
#brilliant, beginning with concept to follow 5 close friends, young, idealistic, naive Germans through last, losing years of WWII.
#best WWII drama I've seen.
#as strong an anti-war drama as anything in the literature.
For now, wipe my tears and try to stop shaking.