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"You can't fix it. You can't make it go away.
I don't know what you're going to do about it,
But I know what I'm going to do about it. I'm just
going to walk away from it. Maybe
A small part of it will die if I'm not around
feeding it anymore."
--Lew Welch
How to tell a story
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Yep
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Major changes going on with me. I spent hours yesterday in my basement office, the house cleaner upstairs, with a perfect time to write on Titanic. I didn't even open the file. It's not that I don't like the concept -- it could be my best work. But so what? I have lost the faith that literature matters in my culture. It's been perverted into a marketplace commodity. The age of literature is over, says Philip Roth, and he is right. A new sensibility, a new kind of mental focus, has been born, against brooding, reflection, all things slow. Opinion now matters more than knowledge. Everyone thinks they are free. What a perverse joke. We have created a society of consumer slaves, who need "likes" on Facebook to justify themselves. Sick sick sick.
In this environment, why write? A major theme in Titanic!! Which is why I may yet finish it, once winter comes and there's not much else to do. We shall see, we shall see. It is indeed a great concept. So what?
What interests me most now, the activity, is cooking. I get off on cooking ... as now, paella in the oven. Gerry Mulligan playing. As happy as possible for me, I think.
And Harriet is getting a sense of humor about her old age! She made a great joke about it going out the door today. Hopeful sign she can turn her whining feeling sorry for herself mode around.
If I were young today, 20s or 30s, I would leave the country. Where I'd like to go has weather that would be hard for me: Iceland, Nova Scotia, Scandanavia. Not sure where I'd end up. Maybe live in a van and be a vagabond here. Also, I'd have to make a living.
Man, have I been lucky in that department! I've mostly been able to survive as an artist, with grants, with projects, with teaching, with help from others. Remarkable because I am sure I could not do this today. Far fewer opportunities. Again, a major factor in my blessed life is being born before Pearl Harbor, being a teenager at the birth of rock and roll, being too young for Korea, a Cold War vet by Vietnam, becoming a literary writer at a time of good grant support, getting a commission for hyperdrama that would put me far ahead of the curve, resulting in now being "in the canon" of first generation hypertext, an obscure honor far, far better than nothing, believe me ... and actually, after I pass, I think some grad student somewhere is going to discover my novels, which I consider high on my list of accomplishments. 3 or 4 are worth lasting, and SODOM, GOMORRAH & JONES captures America's dilemma today, by my lights. Blah blah blah. Ha ha ha.
See why I quit writing?
I hope Harriet gets her shit together. Day to day stuff would be much more fun if she wasn't feeling sorry for herself all the time. Her friends and family don't see that. She is a proud lady with skill at showing a front. I don't benefit from the charade.
Her joke on herself today was great! More moroe more! Man, if you can't laugh at old age, you are in deep shit.
Monday, September 28, 2015
"Education" marches on
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Understood
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More coming?
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Paul Weitz
Weitz has directed some mainstream movies I'm not particularly fond of ... so GRANDMA, which he wrote and directed, surprised me, especially when he set up - and turned down! - a feel-good Hollywood ending, staying true to the character instead. Not a Hollywood hero but an existential hero. Consequently I greatly admire this film. And his art here.
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Sunday, September 27, 2015
Yep
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Yep
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Go, coach!
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Pundits! Jeez ...
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Football
Oregon collapsed, murdered at home by Utah. UCLA-Utah in November might be a biggie.
I suspect many surprises are ahead.
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Rents
"Sick of the housing prices? Nobody's required to live here, and poet Anne Leonard recently packed up for Nashville. She gave up her unit in a North Beach single-room-occupancy hotel, which cost $1,600 a month for a room and access to a communal bathroom and kitchen. "I have a beautiful, amazing one-bedroom with an incredible view that goes for about 50 miles into the hills," she said. "It's $585 a month.""
Another reason to stay in our house!
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Saturday, September 26, 2015
Song of the Old Bones
my race is run
I had some glory
had some fun
If you remember
what I've done
don't forget
to tell someone
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Moving slow
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Sad
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Perspective
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Back door
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Friday, September 25, 2015
No bullshit
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Duh
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Collected works
Several years ago, not one person in my class, including English majors and graduate students, had ever read Auden. Only one knew who he is. SHOCKING!
I had the honor of spending several hours with him in mid 1960s, when he came to campus to read at Pasadena City College. I was student on his welcoming committee. He drank many martinis ... and gave a flawless reading.
Dorothy Day
How about BEFORE the Internet?
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Thursday, September 24, 2015
Go, go
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Alas, no change likely
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The Pope's Founding Fathers
Pretty far out.
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Wednesday, September 23, 2015
My recent lack of energy, and to a major degree, is puzzling. I feel a bit under the weather, a cold not quite ready to arrive, and this may be it; or it may be a new stage in old age. Whatever it is, I am dragging through the day and baking bread or biscuits, or grilling, is about all the activity I can manage during the day. I dabble on other things ... just about have June Apple down on banjor, for example.
Harriet, too, talks about lack of energy but she takes it harder than I am. She is having a very hard time accepting being "old." I actually like being old, more or less. I love the lack of deadlines and responsibility! I like the richness of long brooding and contemplation and meditation. But I don't like aches and pains, which in mild forms are constant, and I don't like dragging around at this new increased level.
But I never forget how blessed my life has been and remains. One of the lucky ones!
Getting periodic maintenance on our heater, hope it doesn't cost too much. Very tight budget, always. But we're hanging in. We can't afford trips whenever we want that is what a reverse mortgage was going to finance but that's fine by me. H misses it more.
Noise from the basment! A vacuum, I think ... he's cleaning the furnace.
Mariners playing better ball since All Star game than in first half of season. They may get to .500 yet.
Big UCLA game against Arizona this weekend. Loving college football this season.
Hear, hear!
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Hanging in
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Perspective
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One of a kind
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And the Republicans?
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Straight ahead
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Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Cartoon
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Our poisoned oceans
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Monday, September 21, 2015
Hear, hear!
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Yep
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The employed homeless
Peebles is part of a growing segment of homeless people who have full-time jobs but can't make ends meet. In the past decade, as tech jobs have boomed in Silicon Valley, so has rent. Average monthly rents for a one-bedroom apartment are $2,186 in San Jose, $2,469 in Oakland and $3,361 in San Francisco, according to research firm Real Answers. Salaries for tech shuttle drivers start at around $2,900 a month - making even modest nearby apartments unaffordable. Instead of moving somewhere cheaper on the outskirts of the Bay Area - hours from their jobs - Peebles and several other tech bus drivers live in their cars.
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Sunday, September 20, 2015
The Greek spirit
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Ideology
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Here we go
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Troubling to have to defend it
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Saturday, September 19, 2015
Somehow UCLA escapes 24-23
The coach, however, is pleased how they hung in against so much adversity, including two red zone interceptions. He has young Rosen's back.
It's a long season.
Friday, September 18, 2015
Broadening the base
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Vanguard
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Vanguard
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Thursday, September 17, 2015
Yep
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The candidates I would love to see
If it's Bush-Clinton, give up on the political system to change from within.
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Appalling - and, alas, typical today
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Grim possibilities
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Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Biscuits and gravy
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Sad Senator Morse
The story of Wayne Morse
Testing theory
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Fear distorts
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Lack of substance
Who can you blame but education, to let these non-thinking souls out the door? Kids are not born this shallow.
Today's goal
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Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Etc etc etc
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Indeed - sure not the 1960s!
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Chicken
I prefer almost anything to chicken.
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The future
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Grilling
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Wild goose chase
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Anxiety
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You got that right
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Monday, September 14, 2015
Monday night
Pretty mellow day. I like mellow days.
H off to meeting tonight, I'll banjo and maybe watch a little football.
Doc appt tomorrow ... my heart doc wants to change something. Not sure why. I worry about these guys keeping alive too long1 Seriously. Time to let Nature takes its course.
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Anniversary
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Progress in America
I can hardly wait.
Solidarity
ESPN 3 replay
Almost time for grilling prep. But it's raining. Hmm.
Professor shot in office
The perils of teaching today.
The front lines
Sunday, September 13, 2015
Another epic debut
Computer projections
Conscience
Sports in America
It sure is ... much ugliness ahead
Routine
No football today ... NFL doesn't interest me.
Is there a profession with more jerks than sports talk radio? Maleness at its worst: ignorant, arrogant, intolerant.
Learned A part of June Apple. A music day.
A chores day, the fight against blackberries.
A grilling day. Not sure what. H likes chicken, too often for me.
Cooking is my salvation.
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Ismael Reed
"In his review of Paul Beatty’s novel The Sellout [“Shelf Life,” August 17/24], Jesse McCarthy includes me among a group of writers in “perpetual search of an audience.” Just because most of my books and theater have been ignored by the New York media—including The Nation , which hasn’t reviewed a book of mine since the early 1980s—doesn’t mean that I lack a wide audience."
Reed continues to document incredible international success. American literary culture wears blinders.
Good moment
13 years ago! Cool.
Contentment
and I haven't sued anybody
don't have a fantasy football team
and don't rob banks
I'm not getting an inheritance
and always get passed over for a genius grant
it's safe to say
I'll be as broke tomorrow
as I am today
but not so broke
I can't enjoy myself
baking bread and biscuits
and starting the day
with the best iced coffee
in the entire universe
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Cartoon
Influence
Class
Not in America
Class
From the ridiculous to the sublime
Almost enough to get me to root for the Spartans.
Friday, September 11, 2015
Hear, hear!
Selective history
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Solidarity, strong parental backing
Important essay on the dying university
"Having spent a life in the academy, I now find myself in the increasingly common position of having one foot out and one foot in. I have finished my Ph.D., and I have no long-term job. I am an instructor but not a professor; I am on campus but not of it, an itinerant visitor. In this standing I join countless thousands of others whose contracts don’t extend past the next semester. Meanwhile, a new generation of students has become acclimated to the experience of college as luxury resort hotel, one they will pay for in student loans for the rest of their lives. Every day, there are fewer who remember what campus once was, or would want to fight for it. The colleges themselves, motivated by only the desire to please their alumni and their boards by advancing in the relentless competition up the rankings, cannot conceive of a world beyond the viewbook."
Epic upset, the story
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Vinci upsets Serena!
The lost counterculture
Yep
Yep
Perspectives
Thursday, September 10, 2015
In America
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Example
Definition
the more sense it makes
to describe old age
with just one word:
pathetic
Seattle #3
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Wednesday, September 9, 2015
In America
Tiny step
And now ...
Tuesday, September 8, 2015
Mellow
Compliments on my book of poems from my dying poet friend. He even put some to memory.
H struggling with less energy ... I accept it better than she at the moment.
Poetry in America
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In America
The talk without a walk
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No holds barred
Took long enough
2 slices of toast
Already have my banking chores done, catching up after the long weekend. Today is musuc day! Establish a routine for each instrument.
Then writing. A new bold idea to add to the mix! Time has not been wasted.
Feeling good.
Monday, September 7, 2015
zzzzzzzz
Everything's relative
Lost legacy 2
Hear hear
Hear hear
Near future
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Euro press railroaded her
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Lost Legacy
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Surprise!
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Clone this
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Headline of the day
Josh Rosen
Portland State beats Wash St!
Paella ...
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Sports in America: too much of this today, widespread (incl UCLA)
Alas, no
Tic toc
Attitude
Attitude
Transition
But today is football, starting in less than an hour, Navy and Stanford games, later Portland State at Wash St, noonish the biggie, Va at UCLA ... if I have energy after that, an Oregon game.
Somewhere this weekend, try an idea for paella rolls. Had them in Boise, thinking about them ever since.
Friday, September 4, 2015
Grilling
I prefer lump coal briquettes, started in a chimney.
I create a grilling environment with direct heat, indirect heat, and high humidity.
Turkey legs tonight. Later vegies. Oiled, seasoned for a few hrs before grilling.
A chunk of hickory wood for smoke flavoring.
Wouldn't it be nice
Yep
$he i$ going yo make ton$$$$$$$
Know the feeling
Football radio app
America today
Bernie
Thursday, September 3, 2015
I been to the zoo
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3 days, 3 games
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
RE-create v. Create
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Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Legacy
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Hmm
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